I know a guy. He loved a girl. She loved him. Now they are not together. Things just didn't work out. This friend of mine has no one. His dad thinks him worthless and often tells him. His mom- she feels the same. His sister is far away. She loves him. Anyone who ever thought he could change has since given up on him. And while they all say "no, I think he could" they end it with "he just won't." He often heard he wasn't good enough for this girl. Everyone said so. It must be true then. And what with owrds having power- it became true. The more people said he lied to her, the more he began to. She loved him, though. This girl was young. Too young to take on this boy. It was too much. She was too serious with him. He does need to change. I believe he will. But he's broken. There is no one to fix him. He won't let love in easily. I don't think she was wrong. I just don't want him to end up like so many say he will. He's not hopeless. He's not crazy. He's not "not good enough." He's a child of God. He is loved. He has a purpose...He's 20...there are so many places he could go...so many places he's been...
Please say a prayer for this guy.

Exhausted. It's what I am. That and brilliant. Of course. This is totally my second all-nighter in less than a week. Last Tuesday night and tonight. Hooray. I'm hoping I will be able to stay awake until I get to the airport through my first flight and then until I get on my second plane because...well...the flight is super long. Like four-and-a-half hours! And then there's the bus ride. Which is another 3 1/2. So that means I can sleep for about 8 hours. Which should keep me awake enough. That and the crazy excitement about being home! One of my joys of flying is...God speaks to me a lot on planes. That is- when I listen. Of course some of it is some ridiculous cornball things...but hey...I need to brush my teeth...but I burnt my tongue...and it hurts...and I'm going to be home in 15 1/2 hours. hooray!

Good Question-

That's a good question- what is God doing...I don't actually remember what it was that I was so excited about when I wrote that Blog...but I can think of somethings that God is doing...That week I spent a lot of time with an old friend. My friend and I became friends because we had some common interests (ie- buffy) This friend of mine struggles with her relationship with God, getting into wicca, cutting...and some other things. She was a very emotion-driver person, who didn't really care about her attitude towards things and other people and just wanted things to go her way. She made lots of plans but never really acted on them. My friend applied for War College in Charlotte. She loves God. He's all she talks about (with me...) She is making crazy plans to move to New York and win that city. She's a completely different girl...she shows me the amazing-ness of God. The other day I was asked another good question- what is God saying- and I've never been really good at answering this question because I don't know if I listen all that much. But then I was listening enough to have an answer- but once again...I'm stuck. I think it's because my life is pretty good right now. I don't feel crushed, or alone, or anything bad. Sometimes I feel a little bored...but that's about it. So while I still pray and talk to God- I don't think I'm used to really hearing His voice in the good times...although, I did ask Him why I get so obsessed with things so easily...